Feeling a Little Overwhelmed

"I pour out my complaint before Him; declare my trouble before Him. When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, You knew my path. In the way where I walk, they have hidden a trap for me. " Psalm 142:2-3

Here lately I have just been feeling so overwhelmed! Trying to make sure the house is in order, that I am still spending time with Maddie and Shane once he gets home from work, trying to read the Bible from the beginning, (never have made it through the whole thing) doing my devotionals (have 2) and reading all the wonderful blogs plus also reading A Purpose Driven Life. Oh and trying to come up with a blog posts that are actually read worthy. I don't like that I either have nothing to say or just big giant rambling posts, like this one will turn into I am sure...


Since I have been focusing on all this other stuff and everything seems so crazy right now, it seems like I am just not as close to God as I was at the beginning of this journey, when it was so new and so exciting. Not that He isn't exciting to me anymore it just seems like something has changed. I don't feel that close to God right now, I don't have that peaceful feeling I used to have.

It's almost like in 1 Samuel 13:14

"But now your kingdom must end, for the Lord has sought out a man after his own heart. The Lord has already appointed him to be the leader of his people, because you have not kept the Lord’s command.”

I keep wondering what I did to make Him so quiet lately

O Lord, why do you stand so far away? Psalm 10:1a

I really miss how close He seemed to be when I first rededicated. It seemed like I could hear Him so clearly and now not so much.

"When I was in my prime, God’s friendship was felt in my home" Job 29:4

I know that God never does leave us, He is the One that is faithful when we aren't. I am trying so hard to get that feeling back, and trying to get some quiet time to study without interruptions, where I can pray about it if what I have just read doesn't make sense. I guess I just need to make that a big priority, making sure that EVERY day I have Maddie go to her room, or wait until she is in bed, so I can have that quiet, personal, intimate time with Him. I need to get back to saying my prayers out loud so my head stops running around, plus it seems to helps me feel that much closer to Him. Just don't know what to do. I just want my Friend back! That's what it was like in the beginning, like I had just reconnected with an old friend and now it's like we've lost touch again.

I will just keep praying and hope that soon, things will all slow down and I will get that feeling back. Maybe I am just trying too hard, trying to read all the wonderful Christian blogs out there and doing so many different studies right now. Maybe if I just stop trying to take it all on and just let Him guide me in the way I need to go...

"Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; He will neither fail you nor abandon you." Deuteronomy 31:8 Pin It