My Grandpa

My Grandpa was an amazing man!  He was a carpenter and a farmer.  He loved living out on the farm and working the land.  Sadly, last Friday he passed away.  We had the funeral for him yesterday.  It was a nice funeral.  He was loved by so many and will be missed by many as well.  The only good thing is now he is in Heaven and all the answers we have asked for many years have been revealed to him! 
Pleas continue to keep our family in your thoughts and prayers.  Thanks!

This was on his obituary, I loved the poem and thought I would share

My Farm

My farm to me is not just land where painted buildings stand… to me my farm is nothing less than all created loveliness… My farm is not where I must soil my hands in endless dreary toil, but where through seed and swelling pod, I’ve learned to walk and talk with God… My farm to me is not a place outmoded by a modern race… I like to think I just see less of evil, greed and selfishness…

My farm is not lonely for all day I hear my children shout and play… And here, when age comes free from fears, I’ll live again long, joyous years… My farm’s a haven—here dwells rest, security, and happiness… Whate’er befalls the world outside—here faith and hope and love abide… And so my farm is not just land where painted buildings stand… To me, my farm is nothing less than all of God’s hoarded loveliness…

Author Unknown

 

And a song that was sang at the service

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Praise You in this storm..

I just love this song and just wanted to share it with you all.   I am still going through a wave of emotions and today was one of those days that I was just drained.  I usually have something more to say or something more uplifting to write about and have a ton that I have scheduled but not here lately.  Hoping I will get back there soon. 


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Having a music marathon

here since Mad is gone.  Just listening to some good music, remembering Randy, laughing and grieving....





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Don't worry...

"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done."

                                        Philippians 4:6-7

Isn't it amazing how once you can finally do this that you will see how much He is really working.  It is just so amazing that once you finally just give it over to Him, pray about everything, that He will take control.

Unfortunately it took a death of a friend, that was like family, for me to do that.  I didn't know what else to do, there was so much going on after his death, locating family and stuff like that.  I ended up just crying out to God, telling Him that I give it all to you, take it!  I just don't know what else to do other than to give it all to you and to help me have some peace.

It is so amazing to see how many things just start to click together.  Cracks me up and after each click God deserves a big Hallelujah, Thank you Jesus!!!!

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you;  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.  For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. –Isaiah 41:10, 13

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OK God!

You know how bad I was falling apart Tuesday God?  I kept asking You and Bro. Tom for verses? Well I didn't do my normal Bible study Tuesday but was trying to look in the index for stuff on grief, death, whatever... nothing was helping.
Hmm.. maybe I should have done my study for Tuesday 'cause guess what!?! It gave me what I needed.... Ok this will be long but this is from Tuesday and Wednesday's Bible study from my Mom's Devotional Bible.

 "Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer
or withheld His love from me!" Psalm 66:20

 

James 1:2-5 (THIS ONE IS A GOOD ONE! but aren't they all?)
Trials and Temptations
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.

2 Corinthians 1:3-5
The God of All Comfort
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.

and love this one!!
2 Corinthians 12:8-10
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

I just copied these from Bible Gateway since it was quicker than typing them all.
Man these might have come in handy yesterday but with all I was going through at the time too I just might not have seen it or understand it. Today when I was reading it, the first one, I was laughing, saying, "Alright God, I got it!!" See I think those are the times when I usually ask Him to reach down and smack me to show me something, that He does! Then I have to laugh and say alright, alright, I get it!! Thank You!!!! Pin It

God is in Control

even when we don't truly understand His ways, I just have to remember that God is in control!   We never fully understand His intents especially when a friend dies at such a young age.  God is in control.  He is the one telling us not to worry, that Randy is fine now, no more troubles, worries, demons to fight, he is finally at peace!  No it still does not take away all the questions we may have or the hurt we may feel but I just have to keep remembering the world doesn't work like we think it should.  God has a plan for everything and for everyone.  I believe that no matter where Randy would have been or what he would have been doing, if it was his time then it was his time.  I just hate that his time with us was so short!!

I want to thank God that for some reason about a month ago I went to Randy and Kenneth's to see them.  It had been a long time since I had seen them.  Kenneth took me down the hall to where Randy was and the look on his face was just priceless!  He was so surprised and so happy to see me & Maddie!  I am so thankful that he got to see Maddie again too.  That smile, that shocked look, his screaming, "What!?!  No Way!!!"  Will always be with me! (man I wish I would have had my camera!)

I loved that boy with all my heart and hate that he is gone so soon.  It is like I have whole that I just can't fill anymore.  It is so hard for me to not keep asking why?  I may not understand it or like it but I know God is in control and this is just how things have to be.  I just have to keep praying for that peace, for help letting go of the anger, hurt, and all the questions that I will never get answers for.

‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10

 'Cast your cares on the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.'  Psalm 55:22

 The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in Him,   Nahum 1:7

Dear Lord,
Please help me to have some peace in this situation right now.  Help me to understand that I may not get the answers I need, and help me to stop being so angry.  Help me to understand that You are in control and that I need to just let go and give it to You so that You can comfort me the way that only You can.  Thank You for the time we did have with Randy and for letting him come into our lives and giving us such happiness whenever he was around.  We are truly going to miss him!  Thank You for the friends that he had, that loved him like he was their family.  Please be with them also in their time of grief.  Help us all find some peace in this.    Amen Pin It

Prayers do get answered...

We have been having to deal with a lot of stuff lately and I have just been trying to pray about it and leave it all in God's hands.  It is still so unbelievable about Randy but we are dealing with it.  I have prayed for peace about the situation and for the most part I have gotten it, prayed for help finding a family member and we did with God's help and some friends help.  It is amazing how things can fall into place when everything else seems to be falling apart..  This long ordeal is not over but at least it finally looks like we will be able to get some closure and be able to have a memorial and burial for Randy.  So happy about that.  He deserves that much!!

"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express" (Romans 8:26).

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7). 


"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18).

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Crazy few days

Wanted to thank everyone again for their thoughts and prayers.  It has been really hard and still so hard to believe that he is gone.  It is so hard to just try to go on but I know we need to.  I asked God yesterday to just help us to give us that peace we need to deal with this and to know that everything is alright and that Randy is in Your hands.  I have been having such a peaceful feeling.  Not that I am not so upset and still a little angry but something in me is saying it is alright.  Randy is in a better place and finally truly happy.  No more struggles and no more demons to fight.  That right there gives me the peace I need too.

"I cried out to the Lord, and he answered me from his holy mountain." Psalm 3:4, NLT

The Lord is near to all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth He fulfills the desires of those who fear Him; He hears their cry and saves them.- Psalm 145:18-19 Pin It

Thank you

everyone for your kind words, blesses and prayers.  It has been a long day...  Not going to go into all the details but all we know is he fell in the bathroom and hit his head.  Not sure how he fell or if something caused him to fall... heart attack, aneurysm or what... they sent him to get an autopsy and we will just go from there.  No family so having to figure out how to do the funeral too.  He was only 34.. way to young....
Thanks again for all the prayers..

Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit

Matthew 5:4
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

John 14:1-4
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God[; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.

Me and Randy in '96

Randy & Shane after graduation in '94

Maddie showing Uncle Randy her art work

Short little clip from '06

Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

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Won't be blogging for a bit

just found out a VERY good friend of ours died so I won't be on for awhile.  still don't know the details  just pray for peace for him and us please Pin It