This is just a little bit of a random rant. ( I guess that’s what you’d call it)
I am trying to constantly stay in the word, reading and studying but I just don’t know how to balance it all and how to deal with the regular stuff and make sure I have that time with our Lord and time to take care of our daughter and the house. I want to spend all my time learning and worshipping Him but then the daily routine starts and things tend to fall apart. Still working with my daughter on trying to remind her that she is not the parent that I am, that she needs to learn to listen to me and then she does or says something for what seems like the hundredth time and I am raising my voice at her again. So how can I be doing what our Lord is trying to teach us if I am losing my temper that easily? I am trying to teach her that we need to use kind words, not mean words, to talk to each other nicely and then I turn around and yell at her to listen to me, I’ve told you how to do this several times and you still don’t get it! Why do I have to constantly show you or tell you!?!
She just really knows how to push my buttons! I don’t know what I/we have done wrong to have her act the way she does. When we were little we wouldn’t dare say or act like that! I never thought I would have such a spoiled little child that has no respect for her parents at all! I know she is only 3 1/2 but she should still know how to act. So now it is even harder trying to do tough love now. No I’m not beating her but to her tough love is no TV, time playing in her room or coloring, something besides sitting in front of the TV, and having to clean up every time she is done with something instead of waiting for the end of the day/night.
It’s not even right of me to sit here and try to make excuses because there is really no excuse for it. I should have enough control that I do not get that upset and yell at her. I am always torn between doing things the way I was raised and the way they want things done now. My mom was so good with us, hardly ever raised her voice but when she did we knew we were in for it. Swats from her hurt! I lived through it and think I am a better person for the discipline I got when I was a child. We never dreamed of tearing up the living room with our toys, jumping around mom when she was on the phone, whining at her because she was cleaning and not letting us watch TV or because she wasn’t putting all her attention on us. When we were told to go to our room we stayed in our room until she said we could come out and we didn’t kick the doors or the walls!
We have got to figure this out! She needs to learn that time by yourself without a TV can be a good thing! I have tried to tell that I need some quiet time to read and to concentrate on what I am reading so she needs to take that time and go to her room and play. I have also suggested that she could look at her little Bible and if there is a story we haven’t gone over, one that she doesn’t know or has questions then we can go over it after we are done with our quiet time. I have been trying to get her to keep God and His Son first. That we need to constantly be talking to Them and thanking Them for all They have done for us!
Guess I am done rambling for now. So sorry that this has jumped from one thing to another but I have just really been so frustrated lately and just needed to let it out! My hubby is great but he doesn’t always get it. Sometimes he thinks that since I am at home then things are a breeze. Far from it!
I often wonder if God is saying this about me? How many times He has wanted to say the exact same thing? It seems like lately every time I ask her, “Why don’t you listen?” there’s a little voice in my head asking me the same thing.
If you actually read this, then thank you very much! lol
Here is a great verse I read yesterday from a new blogger friend over at Randomissus had this as her WFW yesterday. It is a very powerful and it does speak volumes!
I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see.
Revelation 3:15-18
Here’s another post of me ranting abut the same thing…
and this one was from the other day and I really loved the verses in it.
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