An update

Sorry I haven’t been doing the Jesus Calling Devotional posts lately.  I will do my best to catch up for the last of April over the weekend but I won’t be doing them anymore.  You’ll have to go buy the book! 

I have been thinking about going back to work for awhile now but I didn’t plan on looking until the end of summer since Maddie will be in school all day next year. Of course I was wanting something that would give me weekends and holidays off and days would be a bonus! A few weeks ago my old job called me back and asked if I wanted my job back. I had to think about it for a bit, talked to my husband and he said it sounded good and I should take it. Besides it was something I know, already know the people and the routine. The only down side is that it is from 2p-11p Monday thru Friday.

It was a hard decision for me to make. After being home with Maddie for the past four years, not really having a schedule and just crafting, playing, learning and fighting… I really didn’t want to take it. I wanted to stay home this summer and play in the pool everyday and have fun! Well… hubby has been working so hard these past 4 years, being the only bread winner, doing well and not struggling but there are always those thoughts of what if? He seemed really relieved when I told him about it so I decided to take it.

It is going to be so hard and Maddie will now be going to daycare. Her school provides a daycare which is good and they even have it during the summer times which is better! They are also close, 10 min walking distance and only a minute or 2 driving and it is on the way to work. That is what made us decide to go with them. Maddie is excited about going and then the next minute she is telling me she doesn’t want me to get a job, that dad already has one and mommy’s are supposed to stay at home with the kids! Smart girl… knows how to tug at my momma’s heart.

I start on Monday and she will be going to daycare on Monday as well. They will let me come up and sit/eat lunch with her and I am very thankful for that. I will be doing that for the first week or so or until she tells me to stop. I will only see her maybe an hour in the morning and an hour at my lunch, then the times she lets me sit with her at lunch time. This is going to be hard on all of us! Maddie and I at separating from each other, Shane and I not seeing each other much either, about the same amount of hours as Maddie, and then it will be hard on him having to take over all the parenting rolls in the evening time. Praying this all works out and it is God’s plan!

Just wanted to let you all know so when you see days… well weeks since I already go days without posting you will know why.

I’m scared but ready for this new journey to begin!

 

 

Just a  few pictures of my sweet baby girl and the hat I crocheted for her today!

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